It was all a blur.

This picture was taken 1 hour and 10 minutes before baby Anne would make her arrival. Contractions were 5 minutes apart, but that doesn't mean too much for my laboring record. We decided to go the hospital, I was afraid they might send me home since they had only been 5 minutes apart for under an hour...
Checked in at 9:25am on the 26th of October. The nurses looked at me with suspicion when I told them my actual due date, which was 6 days away. They measured my cervix, and to Joe and I's relief, I was dilated between 5-6. "This means the baby is coming today!" Joe and I's eyes could read each others thoughts with our smile. I sent Joe down to get the suitcase.
"What's the latest I can get my epidural? I mean the earliest I can get it?" I asked the nurse.

"Well, first we have to order your IV and draw your blood. After that we'll get an anesthesiologist to come up." She said and then turned to leave. I sat thinking blankly for a moment anticipating the next contraction.
And then it happened.
Something I wasn't expecting. And something that would signal my world turning upside down, changing every plan and expectation. It was 4 contractions right after another. No breaks. The power of the pain was something I had never experienced before. "Owwww! I usually have my epidural...by now...And where is Joe!?!" I thought. I called in a nurse and explained between gasps of air what was happening, she called for more help and for "everything" for the baby to arrive. I couldn't really believe what she was saying.
Joe came up with the suitcase and I tried to explain what had happened... "Hold my hand." I pleaded him. The contractions continued to magnify in intensity as they decreased slightly in duration. So uncomfortable were the waves of feeling centering in my abdomen that I could hardly lie still to concentrate. I started to cry.
And then I started to scream.
The pain was becoming way too intense for my meger tolerance. It was all happening so fast, 3 minutes, 2 minutes apart. All I could do was scream with hope of some relief. And then my mind clicked with the realization, "I am going to have the baby naturally whether I like it or not..."
Amid the rush of my body and the rush of the nurses around my room, I heard a voice, "A nurse is here to take your blood," the red-haired nurse said.
"Take my blood?!?" I marveled. "...who cares about my blood! Can't you see, nothing is protocol right now!! I am in AGONY!!" I pushed the blood-sucking-illogical nurse away instinctively while in the thought.
My arms and face begin to feel tingly and numb and the antibiotics were burning my arm as they came through the IV. "I'm about to pass out." I said to the red-haired nurse.
"Jenni, just breathe," She said. "See if you can slow down your breathing..."
I couldn't keep on top of the pain anymore. There was nothing to rely on for relief or even to take an edge off. Crying didn't help anymore, I lay with one hand over my eyes taking in the rushing of my body as it worked on it's own. Joe's strong hand was my only way to feel reality, to emerge from my private chamber if only for a few short breaths. Then one thought emerged; I was promised a healthy baby in a blessing I received just the day before. It would be worth all of that...
My legs went instinctively up. "She's trying to push!" A nurse yelled. "Somebody check her!" By now the intensity of the centralized movement with my screaming and pain dictated my whole being.
"Get this baby out!!" I pleaded.
The nurse quickly checked me. "She's at a 9 and I can feel the baby's head...and her water just broke. OK honey, don't push..."
HA!
"Get the doctor! Did somebody call Dr. Potter?" A nurse ordered.
"Yeah, he's on his way up. OK Jenni I need you to look at me. Breath like this...good...don't push yet..."
(Insert burning feeling, pain that is off of the 1-10 scale and Jenni giving explicit directions to the nurse :)
"Jenni, this is Dr. Garcia. He works with Dr. Potter." I grey-haired man with an assuring smile entered the room. I was in and out of reality for the few moments it took as he quickly prepared for delivery. The next thing I knew he was right by me.
"Yenni, you ca push now."
Oh, sweet words of wonderful pain!!!
And then, it was gone.
A smile spread across my face and, oh, the relief!!! I heard my new baby cry. My healthy little girl whom I would be holding in my arms in a few moments...

Anne Elsie Jane Black born 1 hour after arriving at the hospital at 10:25am.

Thanks to God, Joe, an angel-faced nurse, a smiling Dr. and the fact that it was only an hour long, that all I have is the blurry memory of pain, the biggest bruise I've ever had from a nurse who somehow got my blood, and a precious, beautiful, wonderful baby Anne.
13 comments:
Wow! Those were some incredible descriptive words that I hope to never have to use about my future labors! Wow, you are a tough woman. I am glad she is here and you are a happy family of five. You deserve breakfast in bed forever.
You are a stud, Jenni. I would have absolutely panicked without an epidural, but looks like you did great. Congratulations on your beautiful new baby.
Oh jenni, I cried the whole way through your post. (I blame the emotions on my own pregnancy) Congratulations.
Wow Jenni, I can't imagine (well I started to and then decided I didn't want to). Glad things worked out and you have a beautiful little one!
Okay, your story inspired and terrified me. I have been wondering whether I would be able to handle natural childbirth (I'm 11 weeks right now) and I REALLY don't know whether I would be able to.
Congratulations on such a beautiful daughter.
I remember being told not to push because the doctor was not there yet when Alyssa was born. I could not believe they were telling me not to. My body was telling me to so I pretty much ignored them and pushed anyway.
Dr. Garcia is a very sweet man. He had to do surgery to on me that I did not want. He told me he was only doing what he would do if I were his daughter. How can you argue with that? He was very kind and comforting at a difficult time for me.
Congratulations on another beautiful daughter!
Wow Jenni. I don't really know what to say except congratulations! Thank goodness for modern medicine, right? But now you know what it feels like without it. Way to go. I can't believe how fast it all happened for you. I'm glad you decided to go to the hospital as early as you did. I hope you are recovering well and adjusting well to life with 3 kids!
Wow! What a story. You described it really well, I nearly had empathy pains.
My natural birth was 3 1/2 hours, and I thought I was lucky with that. 1 hour would be sweet - well, painful/horrible sweet. :)
Way to go! I applaud the insanity of your natural experience. And she's lovely.
WOW! Quite the story! So, after everything is said and done...is the next one going to be natural or are you asking for that epidural again? My philosophy is that epidurals are here for a reason and the reason is so I can stand child birth. Anne is beautiful. Cuddle her a lot! As you know, they grow up too fast!
I almost feel bad for laughing through your beautiful story, but you told it so well. I'm so proud of you. Your baby is beautiful and your story is inspirational!
Wow! You are superwoman!!! Man I wish we lived closer so I could come shower you with my admiration. Three beautiful girls... that's awesome! Congratulations!!!
P.S. Is it just me or has Twilight influenced your writing style? :) Of course, I don't think I've read a narrative from you before, so I can't tell if it's changed or not. But that was captivating.
Wow! Good thing you went to the hospital when you did! Congratulations. She is so pretty!
K,
just read your baby story. Loved it, I was laughing and crying. How exciting. Child birth is an experience like no other. You made it!!I figure running a marathon should be easy compared to that!
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